My thoughts......

She looks just like you, beautiful smile, big round eyes…God she is a beautiful child. It’s my little one, my bundle of joy. Yes I dream of having a baby. I even have the names lined up. If it’s a girl, Palesa, Talluah, Tatiana. If it’s a boy, Montwedi, Stembiso. I wonder if it’s for the right reasons though. Does it matter? I would someday soon like to be a mother. I feel I have a lot of love to give and to a certain extent it is imparted to people who don’t appreciate it. My Talluah.

I guess you are all wondering how I am going to accomplish that? Conception requires the seed of a man. Believe you me I have thought long and hard above it. I have even narrowed down the potential candidates. I thought of enticing my ex, given that we were in a relationship for 3 years without doing the dirty deed. However I can’t bring myself to doing it. Don’t get me wrong, I have nothing against the male specie. I could go for artificial insemination but then that would mean I would have to get my ex to agree to it. Do I have the guts to ask that of him after I broke his heart? Why go and pay for the process when one can conceive naturally? It boils down to the fact that I can’t bring myself to engage with a man, even for little Talluah. I don’t want to pick a faceless person at the sperm bank. I want to know Talluah’s, dad. I want to be able to answer Lulu’s questions one day because kids do have an inquisitive mind. I can assure you it has got nothing to do with the fact I am getting old nor do I want to fill a void in my life. The love of a child is unconditional. It’s unassuming and sincere. Why would I want to miss the opportunity of experiencing that?

What is your take on this bloggers?

Lastly when does one stop working on a relationship and start enjoying it?

I am in love.......

They say love is a two way street.
One has to give in order to receive.
No one warned me it would be a pandemonium of emotions.
No one warned me that in order to give myself to someone completely, I have to loose myself completely.
No one warned me that one day, some day when love knocked on my door, I would want to play God and carry my partner’s disappointment and pain.
No one warned me that I would find myself crying to sleep at night because the one I love is not lying next to me.
No one warned me that I would put the one that I love first; I would give up my life for them.
What is this emotion that is ravaging my body?
Seducing me,
Consuming my every thought.
What is this emotion that has broken all the barriers,
That has exposed my fragile heart and left me totally weak.

Some one should have warned me, but then I wouldn’t have listen. Cupid does not choose when to strike nor can I dodge that fateful arrow.
I am in love…..

You swept me off my feet,
Left me dazed and confused.
With one word you heal,
With a hug you chase the blues away,
I am in love….

Someone should have warned me,
I would have looked for cupid sooner,
Just to have one more day with you.
Because I am in love…